predestination and away i go

As I leave I am listening to Mark Driscoll talk to me about predestination. It is good. Mark just said, "the doctrine of election is very conforting." I would have to agree. How very vague of me.

Guess what? I am getting on a plane in about 12 hours that will take me first to NYC, then right on to Kiev, Ukraine where I will be until Friday. And on Friday I am getting on another plane that will take me first to Paris, then right on to Edinburgh, Scotland where I will be until February 6th. Wow!

I am totally thrilled to go. Always a little bittersweet, leaving home, but I really am excited.

Please pray for me. In Ukraine I'll be working with some other people to plan an outreach we are offering to college students/anyone during spring break. My heart is already breaking for these people. In Scotland, I'll be reconnecting with some friends I've known for years and my heart's prayer is to in a way, be like Paul...to encourage and strengthen them. To minister and to pray for them. To bear their load for just a little while.

Okay I really don't have time to blog. I gotta pack!

Bread and Water

I feel different. i feel awakened. i feel brought back.

days can pass and weeks can pass and i try to reach out for something earth-shattering or amazing to fill the void. i think i need words or prophesies to make me feel alive. JESUS...i know that was made for you!! the emptiness that i ignore when i lay my head on my pillow at night, another night of deciding that sleep is more vital than Bread and Water, i know You fill the emptyness. i hunger and i thirst. i don't eat i don't drink.

tonight i tasted. tonight i tasted again. tonight i drank. i had a sip of the Water i've been forgetting about.

tonight i remembered where my help comes from. tonight i remembered that i need Bread to live. tonight i remembered the sweet taste of the Water of Life.

tonight i remembered there is a hunger and a thirst that i have, that you have, that only One Man can satisfy. Jesus, you are so precious.

Jesus, you are so worthy. you are so merciful. you are so kind and gentle.

tonight Jesus is gentle with me. he waits for me, speaks to me, comforts me.

there is so much more.


God make my life great for you. if it means i am hated by most, but following You, let it be. if it means a life of solitude, let it be. if it means martyrdom, by All MEANS LET IT BE.

My life is Yours. My heart is Yours. My dreams are Yours. Again.